I call this the comtemplative season; the season of waiting, pondering, reading, and more thinking and waiting.
Over the past month since school officially ended, i remember being extremely excited that exams were ending and holidays were nearing. Then came the long-awaited break that i anticipated and after a week of resting, i reached a not so nice ‘oh, what’s next’ feeling. No more having the identity of a student which i had for the past 16 years, i admit there is a sense of unexplained loss. Being unable to secure a job yet, the anxious me is starting to act up and this issue continues to ring at the back of my head. I remember having this feeling last summer, before Sarah offered me an internship at SKM. And i recall myself praying and telling God, whatever You offer i’ll take it. But somehow, this summer, i feel like this fire for God is dwindling.
Need to really learn how to rest in the Lord. May this short trip be a good and enjoyable break!
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Today during worship, i was reminded to not be caught up with the crazy workload that needs to be churned out over these coming 2 weeks but to remember that even though work is important, there are much greater things out there to be thankful about.
It made me recall the days in Uppsala, Norway, Edinburgh and Germany, where the creation of God was presented right in front of me. The changing of seasons from autumn to winter in Uppsala, the fjords in Norway, the highlands in Edinburgh and the roadtrip in Germany. Reminded me of His sense of sovereignty and yet amazed at how He knows my very name (: And that, is something to be thankful about.
Timely reminder to not lose my joy in the coming weeks! Joy amidst the storm! (:
# food for thought
Been struggling with some stuff of late, been thinking of things that have changed and things that have stayed. Been thinking of how to better love, how to better spend my time more wisely with things that precious and real. Giving up things is never easy, it’s like a part of me dying when i decide to let go, but yet i believe also in our mighty God, so its not just let go, but it’s also to let God.
I think it’s signs of growing up, where the real issues really hit you. I wouldn’t say this change in lifestyle is bad, perhaps it is a little unusual to people around me but i would say i’m enjoying it. Wouldn’t trade this commitment of new founded time with God and my family for anything else.
Lord, I will bow to You
to no other God but You alone
Lord I will worship You
nothing hands have made
but You alone
I will lay down my idols
thrones I have made
all that has taken my heart
Lord, I Will Bow To You
to no other God but You alone
So so proud of the courageous mr. ng (: (:
We were made to be courageous
We were made to lead the way
We could be the generation
That finally breaks the chains
We were made to be courageous
We were made to be courageous
We were warriors on the front lines
Standing, unafraid
But now we’re watchers on the sidelines
While our families slip away
Where are you, men of courage?
You were made for so much more
Let the pounding of our hearts cry
We will serve the Lord
We were made to be courageous
And we’re taking back the fight
We were made to be courageous
And it starts with us tonight
The only way we’ll ever stand
Is on our knees with lifted hands
Make us courageous
Lord, make us courageous
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